well...there it is...just a few days before i get back to school...actually, i don't feel anything, i don't feel the rush of it, i don't feel like anything's gonna change...funny isn't it? guess i gotta wait for it to actually happen to hit me.

all i've been doing lately is visit friends and run around finishing stuff for my transfer to this new school...it might be a fresh new start, since i don't know anyone or anything there...it's supposed to be better than the one i'm in...but im kinda scared of the change, since everyone i know is in the school i'm in right now...guess it's not so bad trying different stuff, i just hope i do'nt regret it later on.

a few minutes ago, i was walking home and on this car, i saw 2 cats sleeping on top of the hood of a car....something in me told me to stay a bit and watch them...when the cats looked at me, i came closer to them and started rubbing my hand on one of them...but then it just stepped back, as if it didn't want me there...i am a strainger to it after all, then i just got up and went on my way home, and i looked back for a bit to see the other cat sleeping beside the first one...did i get a little too emotional abotu cats ever since Panda and Kitty're gone? i miss those little bastards...anywho~ i just hope i can see them again someday.

A new summer day, followed by a new summer night...that's how it goes on everyday...
a few days ago, more than a week ago, what should be good news to my family, was a fucking nightmare for me...my sister-in-law got pregnant...and all of it came crashing down on me.

for starters, she demanded that we get rid of my cats, Panda and kitty...i was and still against the whole idea, but who'd wanna listen to the voice of the last youngest member? as far as they're concerned, i'm just a little kid who doesn't know what she's talking about, and should be left barking like a dog on the side...which led to them making me give my cats away myself... and what's worse, no one is bothering to look at her 2 faced personality, and of course, who'd believe me if i told them? everything would be okay with me if she fucking stayed away.

stress is literally piling up over my head, with classes starting in 15 days, i gotta start preparing everything...this is supposed to be a fresh new start...though i doubt it would be any different than the others...
screw it, let's just go on and see what's faith got up it's sleeves for me...

this morning, i woke up realizing that i only got 2 hours of sleep and i'm all sweaty and shivering...i notice that it's 4 AM and i can't seem to calm myself down...i look in the mirror and i can't help but think "what the hell is happening to me?"...i did not look fine at all, i was all pale, the rings under my eyes got worse and my eyes got all bloodshot, and i can't seem to breath properly through my nose...i had the flu and i had it real bad...what really made it worse is that my allergies decided to kick in with it...yeah.

that has been going on for me for a few days now, and it ain't pretty...and what do i do about it?...nothing..for the past couple of days it's all a little blurry to me...although i do remember going to the beach and falling in the middle of a street out of dizzyness...

i seem to be a little better now, but still suffering, i'll be fine...eventually.

anyways, a few days ago, our Dogfight collab got posted on soompi, i think it turned out pretty well...im' not exactly hearable but it's still okay~wouldn't wanna ruin it anyways..the point is, it did it's purpose, which was to piss off some guy...at least that's my reason.
Chorus : Pwns
Main Vox : Double Pwns

and that's all i'm gonna say~

http://www.soundclick.com/bands/songInfo.cfm?bandID=470728&songID=4243442 : a link if anyone's interested in listening to it, which i recomment btw.

then i leave hoping tomorrow would be a bit better than today.